For example, a number of difficult questions are raised by the marketing of reproductive material and services and the selectivity it permits. Although the United States prohibits sale of kidneys or bone marrow, it has taken no position on markets in sperm, eggs, or wombs, thus tolerating a flourishing market in genetic material and reproductive services. Sperm, eggs, and gestational services command different prices from one another; their cost also varies based on the traits of the individuals who offer them. For example, an egg from a Harvard-educated, five-foot-nine pianist might very well cost more than an egg from someone without a college education or without musical or athletic ability.
That blows my 39-year-old mind, because I feel like a teenager in middle age clothing. I still feel like someone else should be the grown up. Still, I do feel ready to take responsibility for life and my place in it. I am not afraid to speak up for what I believe. I accept that not everyone is going to like me, even if it still hurts. I know I am never going to be perfect, and I no longer even want to be. I feel like I know what I want from my life, regardless of the expectations of others; unfortunately, I also know that my own expectations for myself are the hardest to bear and the least forgiving. I’m still getting used to the idea that this blur around me is my life happening, but I am getting there.